DKC

( How do you move on when the person you've loved for years transcends to heaven?) " I'll be there on your good days and your bad days " Our wedding vow I knew how to rejoice in your happiness and comfort you when you cried  After all, I chose to interweave my identity with yours, for life But who am I now? A part of me is lifeless Searching for the soul it hugged for so long I'd follow you to your dreams  I'd lead the way to help you face your fears But you're in the only place I can't tag along  So I place my love for you in pictures  In my pocket, on my walls, on my shirt And in my heart, forever  " Till death do us apart " You see, even the vow falls weak infront of my undying love I am and will always be yours Even DEATH can't do us APART.

( What do you do when you know someone loves you but you still struggle to feel their love? Is it just a mere play of different love languages?) I know you love me But do you still like me? You only speak to say I’m loved, But nothing more I know you love me I sit with gifts you shower me with, But rarely with you I know you love me You kiss me so passionately, Then you let me go I know you love me  Because you keep repeating it over and over again  But do you even like me? Or are you bound by commitment you made ages ago? Still strong, But the excitement gone  I’ve got nothing new to offer  I spend my nights alone  Forgotten and confused  You're always too tired for me Or maybe, tired of me I let my tears run until my eyes feel dry So that I can still smile when I see you I spend my days with you Waiting for the moment you’ll look at me Your eyes focused on mine While mine avoid looking at yours After completing tasks you like more You’ll say you love me...

( If you pray enough to stop hurting, you might become numb to everything. But to remember what emotions felt like, would you yearn to hurt again?) Talk to me Ask me questions Heal me with piercing news Stab my ruptured heart  Until it hurts again I'm not yearning for warmth But to shiver in the cold Remind me what once caused me to cry I don't want to be happy I just want to be human Thrash me if you must Drown me in guilt  Repeat the words that used to anger me Show me your face again and again Until I remember how much you've hurt me Then hurt me once more Make me scream in pain I don't need to be happy But I really need to be human again.

(Someone knowing you fully, your ugliest sides, your ugliest thoughts, your struggles that you hide OR someone never seeing past the fragile cover you've put on to fool the world. Both the things equally scare me) I feel the first drop of tear running down as I rest my head on your chest  A big whiff of your scent is enough to comfort my quavering soul I was crying yesterday too  For reasons I myself cannot comprehend  But today I am crying not because I'm overwhelmed with fear but because I'm overwhelmed with love I look at your hands, how they try to hold mine  But I push them away, not because I don't want to feel your touch but because I know I won't be able to let go of it this time I wish you'd met me after I'd gotten better somehow But then I don't  For if I didn't have you right here right now I wouldn't have myself too You keep me sane But I drive you crazy, don't I? I catch a glimpse of the look in your eyes Desperate to find reason...

( What is love actually? ) Bursts of laughter as I gently caress your skin with my hands I may give you tingles across your body But you tingle my heart Even with just a glance  Even with just a word Even with just a touch Subtle gestures from your side They have a huge impact on me My cheeks tinted with shyness My eyes glossy with love My smile, uncontrollable  The comfort in the silence To be looked at by you even on my ugliest days The same look that ignites a strange feeling in my soul I feel beautiful like I've never felt before  The comfort in the chaos Scary days when I'm cranky and sad Yours fingers tangled in my unkempt hair The tighter I'm held, the better my day No one but you can ever touch me this way Distance, the bitterness coated by a small layer of honey Sweet and warm, the sound of your voice  Temporary yet ever lasting  Wondering how it'll be like to be with you again Routined touches, kisses and hugs Each time still like the first Inducing te...

(If you have ever been ghosted, welcome to the club pals) Opened my notes for the 100th time I still have no idea what to say Trying to find words to create a rhyme Wondering what I did to drive you away I've been on delivered for quite a while But I scroll through our texts like an imbecile Oh you chose to give me a wide berth  All my coping mechanisms are falling short  I give a benign smile when I think of you I furrow my eyebrows when I think of you Your pictures in my gallery, they still reside  When I try to erase them I get teary eyed We exchanged paragraphs not just mere messages  Updates about every minute event of the day Now I am covered up in invisible bandages  Being vulnerable didn't make you stay You said you held me in the highest regard Then pulled me down now I've fallen so hard Felt cherished for sometime just to pay a hefty price I'm filled with waves of nostalgia and silent cries I look at the evening sky when I think of you Can't send a pic...