Talk to me

( If you pray enough to stop hurting, you might become numb to everything. But to remember what emotions felt like, would you yearn to hurt again?)


Talk to me
Ask me questions
Heal me with piercing news
Stab my ruptured heart 
Until it hurts again
I'm not yearning for warmth
But to shiver in the cold
Remind me what once caused me to cry
I don't want to be happy
I just want to be human
Thrash me if you must
Drown me in guilt 
Repeat the words that used to anger me
Show me your face again and again
Until I remember how much you've hurt me
Then hurt me once more
Make me scream in pain
I don't need to be happy
But I really need to be human again.


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