Lapsed Love

(If you have ever been ghosted, welcome to the club pals)

Opened my notes for the 100th time

I still have no idea what to say

Trying to find words to create a rhyme

Wondering what I did to drive you away


I've been on delivered for quite a while

But I scroll through our texts like an imbecile

Oh you chose to give me a wide berth 

All my coping mechanisms are falling short 


I give a benign smile when I think of you

I furrow my eyebrows when I think of you

Your pictures in my gallery, they still reside 

When I try to erase them I get teary eyed


We exchanged paragraphs not just mere messages 

Updates about every minute event of the day

Now I am covered up in invisible bandages 

Being vulnerable didn't make you stay


You said you held me in the highest regard

Then pulled me down now I've fallen so hard

Felt cherished for sometime just to pay a hefty price

I'm filled with waves of nostalgia and silent cries


I look at the evening sky when I think of you

Can't send a picture anymore but I think of you

No warnings, no signs, we didn't even say our goodbyes

Mourning the tragic demise of all the stomach butterflies


Flushed cheeks and giggles and adrenaline 

Now flushed eyes, fake smiles and low dopamine 

Unimportant details about me that no one else knows 

You took it all and left me with yours


This maimed heart of mine that I simply can't reset 

Remembers what makes you happy and all the things that you hate

Learning about you and letting you learn about me is something I'll never regret

But I'll always be miserable not knowing why I was so easy to forget 









 










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