Should I Let Go?

(Haven't we all been afraid of not holding the same importance in the lives of our loved ones?)

The warmth in your hugs and solace in the smell of home

I used to live in your arms but it's getting kind of cold

You know without you I always feel like I'm alone 

But I will take care of myself just like I was told

I shed a tear today in the memory of us 

Spotting traces of you in the clouds, the roads, the dust

Blurry eyes looking at tear drops falling on the stones

I hate to admit it but I wish I was home 

Don't get me wrong, I'm doing really well here

I've found people that I adore, people that care

But I can't help but think of all the moments that we have shared 

I'm afraid that one day I'll forget how being with you felt

Do you still think of me like how I constantly do

I see that now someone else has a hold over you

Is it selfish for me to wish that you'd cry a little too

Because everytime I think of you I feel a little gloom

I certainly can't tell you that I'm missing you for then I'd feel an unbearable stab in the heart

So I tell you that I hate you from time to time to remind you that I'm yours even when we're miles apart

I never understood how loving someone can drive you insane 

Now I finally know what they meant when they said that love is pain

We're doing the things we always promised to do

Though I feel somber because I can't share these beginnings with you

It's been quite a while since we last talked 

Do you remember when we swore that we'd keep in touch?

All the excitement and all the hassle of a new life

Every fresh update about you is a surprise 

We've been busy by the way our schedules have changed

But it still hurts when you forget to ask me how my day went  

I tried to do our little dance but stopped halfway

I tried to glimpse at our pictures but stopped halfway

Every memory an agony because it's not the same 

Have you accepted that we might never feel that connection again?

Even when we text or call, the distance creeps and makes itself seen

The longing for your touch just exacerbates when I look at you through the screen

Maybe I should loosen my grip but I still feel your presence here

So I'll hold onto that warmth until you look back at the memories and decide that I only belong there


















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  1. MonwoNovember 6, 2022 at 2:53 PM

    there are ups here are downs, but i feel we're just in middle,
    ik we will not let it fo down, but can we push it up a little?

    time differences and distance are a lot to handle for us,
    flights are overrated, I just wanna travel in bus (1B).

    spending ALL our time in laughing at each other's life story was all that seemed important,
    for nowadays giving update about our life is all what we wanted.

    I don't want to tell stories by myself to others about you all,
    I just want you to add more to the story that I'm telling that's all.

    I'm afraid too that we'll not be the same and that's a nightmare,
    but I'm never accepting that we might never feel that connection again.

    Last but not the least my English is the best,
    I'm still your Manawi, Matt is just for the rest.

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    1. DKCNovember 8, 2022 at 12:02 AM

      🥺🥺can't wait to add more to our stories you fuchiiii

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